This last week has caused me to reflect a little more on the meaning and purpose of me and my place. We celebrated Mother's Day last week and I am so proud to have the privilege to be a mother. And at the same time, feel like I don't measure up to the expectations and demands placed on me. I had a wonderful role model growing up and can now see the multitude of sacrifices my mother made for me and my family. True love was shown through example. She was a wonderful example and continues to be. I love my mom!
So what is a mother to be....a person who unconditionally loves! My purpose is to love, not only my children, but others as well. I can only hope to open my heart and mind and help my children learn the importance of acceptance of others and how to be kind.
Other news this past week, Mason completed his first year of preschool and had his graduation program. He loved singing and reciting things that he had learned. He already misses not going to class. He is turning into such a boy and less of my cute little, rounded belly toddler. His speech has improved tremendously and he loves his stuffed animals.
Madilynne is nearing the end of her kindergarten year. She has loved school and excelled in her reading. She loves to role play and is a social bug. She is ecstatic to start swim lessons. And thrilled to celebrate her birthday with a bunch of girls and getting her ears pierced.
Mitchell is really looking forward to summer and having a break from school. He has had a roller coaster of a year, but overall is doing well. We just recently got results back from his psychologist and he has been diagnosed with Austism, Attention Deficit Disorder, Mild Depression, and a learning disability. Is IQ is 140! I never doubted he is a brilliant little boy, but the psychologist stressed over and over again how intelligent he is.
So where do we go from here? Forward, ever forward. Mitchell is a brilliant kid and I love that most about him. I see changes and progress in him on a daily basis. He is trying to connect to a world that doesn't quite understand him or how he thinks. I hope to help him adapt and learn how to function in a different world. I love his genuine curiosity and honesty in everyday life. He makes me reflect a lot in my life and for that I am grateful. I want him to be happy and treated kindly. I want people to see his potential and help foster his inquisitive mind. I hope we can help treat his mood and help him feel happiness more. I want him to succeed and be happy. I hope that isn't too much.
Paul is busy with work and more training. He has headed to St. George for more tracker training and outdoor surveillance. He is loving it and it is great to see him actively engaged and passionate about his job.
School started on Monday for me....and its going. I am still trying to feel my way back in. After nine years outside of the classroom I am struggling a bit. But Paul gave me a nice blessing to help calm my troubled soul and find balance in my life. He is my rock and best friend. I love him for that.
So today is a new day, after I take a nap. I have worked all night and need to rest my eyes for a few. I pray for the strength to accomplish all the tasks today and help my children know that they are loved and valued!